Thursday, February 07, 2008

this is a tough day for me.  a case i have been investigating at work presents new materials/evidence that lead to only one person.  what is the case?

it has been a bad bad habit for me to look at histories in computers.  blame it on allan's affair a few years back but i just cannot help myself when in front of a computer.  anyways, at school, there are about 8 computers for the teachers to use.  they have been arranged back to back with one row's monitor clearly seen from the hallway and the other row, privately facing its back on the walls.

anyways, a few weeks ago, i found out that the first computer from the row that couldnt be seen from the hallway was quite fast.  i was then trying to download Patayin Sa Sindak Si Barbara from youtube. 

last tuesday, i decided to use the same computer.  it was a bit irritating as it was not as fast as it had been from the last time i used it.  that kind of gave me time to look around [think: history scanning].

there i found sexual videos from youtube and not just your ordinary boy bangs girl video, most of it were gay porn.  i really do not have anything against this and whatever prefernces they have sexually should really not concern me.  but the fact that they have been watching in the school and using the same computers that the children use [we only have 7 students thus 8 computers] makes this my responsibilty.

sigh.  anyways, there is only one guy who uses this computer regularly.  the vidoes were opened only on Tuesdays and he is the only one who is at school on Tuesday mornings,  and it just so happens that  i have long ago made a judgement call [that he is gay] which nobody believed except for allan.

the whole thing is upsetting my stomach he he.  i know i have to address this issue but i:

a. do not want to do a one on one thing as i have not caught the guy red-handed
b. and even if i did catch him on the act, i would still have reservations because this is something that changes someone's life [ for better or worse.... no idea here]
c. think doing a one on one thing would hurt this person very much knowing that he's been in the closet for this long already
d. am not just a head teacher, i am also their friend, their ate.

in the end i decided to just do a memo. [ i don't think i can handle myself well in a group meeting, i might give something away. ] kaso lang there was a problem with the printer so wala munang memo. 

maybe tomorrow

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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
tickled my bones funny

just want to share this to you guys  [ i mean to whoever's reading my blog :D ]


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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
trying to get back

our three-day holiday is nearing its end.  allan is busy with either playing the guitar or with his psp while i sit in front of my laptop either surfing the net or playing mystery case files [i've become so addicted, grabe]

tomorrow, work awaits and normally i would be restless and just worry about how i would hate for tomorrow to come.  i know that's silly but i i just want to have some time to enjoy our clean home [yes!!! we got ourselves a housemaid already!!!] and just have time for blogging and reading [bought 5 books from bangkok and i'm almost finished with the 2nd one]. but i've come to accept that work is money [bwahahahaha] and that i really do love my work and well...i'm okay with going back to work tomorrow he he.

it has stopped being cold here in udon but it's not that hot yet, either.  so this is a really good thing. 

i just realized that i did not blog about the year that was 2007.  that wasn't much of a good yeat but it wasn't terrible either. i've forgotten most of what happened save for the trip in australia and last month when my parents arrived.

allan and i are very much okay.  10 days from now and it will have been our 13th year together.  sometimes i like to stop and think about before when we were so young and riskly and utterly stupid [ think: eloped 3 times]  while a part of me still wants a part of the recklessness back, i am really happy that we are now in a steady flow kind of relationship.  the doubts are gone, i know that he is always there and will never turn his back on me.  we've both seen each other at his and her worst and all the skeletons have been let out of the closet. and after all that has been said and done, we still love. 

oh, come to think of it the V day is almost here.  allan and i dont usually celebrate Valentine's as it's just one day before the anniversary.  maybe dinner out [which is quite common for us as we don't usually cook at home] or maybe a movie [if there is something good showing]

i'm slowly creeping my way back into reading and writing.  one small step at a time.

Posted by kaiganda at 02:16 pm
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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
they've gone back

my mom and dad are now back in pinas.  after almost 2 months here in thailand they're both back in lipa.


gosh i miss them so much.  lalo na my mom.  she stayed with me for a month and almost a month din with kuya.  when they were with kuya in bangkok, i would phone for like 3 million times per day.  we talked about everything and gossiped about other people [he he sama ng ugali].

allan and i were in bangkok yesterday. i wanted to be there naman to say bye.  afternoon pa lang i was already asking myself if i was gonna cry again like i did when they left udon.  i thought i wouldn't na kase mom and i were together the whole day shopping.  kwento kwento, tawa tawa and then mega shopping talaga.


allan and i had to leave early kse we already bought tickets going back to udon.  when it was time to say goodbye, i did not really feel like crying until i hugged and kissed my dad goodbye.  it was so hard to let go of the hug.  i kissed him 2 or three times and said: "wag kayong mag-aaway ha!"  i could see that my dad was really trying hard to fight back the tears.  then i went and hugged mom and kissed her.  ayan, hagulgol queen na naman ako.  my mom cried too while si kuya pang-asar tumawa.


i just really miss my mom, my dad too.  kahit nga ngayon na i'm just recounting what happened yesterday, naiiyak na naman ako.


i just hope that i was able to give them a good time.  when i was younger my mom and i used to fight over the silliest things.  pero ngayon, we just talk like bestfriends.  and i kind of like the idea that my mom shares everything with me, no secrets. 


i really miss her and kahit na i know that saying this a million times over just won't take away the sadness, i can't help but say it and cry.'s not fair.  i want them here with us.

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Tuesday, January 22, 2008
sad day

my first entry in 2008 and a sad one at that.

earlier this afternoon, we sent mom and pop to the airport.  their stay with us is offiially over. 

i was kinda proud of myself when i managed to keep my eyes dry at the airport.  all was well, too until we arrived home.  the sight of our now empty house drove me to tears.  darn, i couldn't help it.  i could barely say a word save for the: " ang lungkot....ang lungkot-lungkot..."

my hubby [bless him] just hugged me and kissed me.  when i looked at him i saw tears din, naku it made me cry more.  i must;ve had cried for hours,  my eyes are still fluffy.

when i was finally okay, i called my mom and pop [they are staying with hapon in bangkok]. nakuuuu, i cried all over again.  my mom kept trying to calm me down but i think she cried too kase she just handed the phone to my pop.  nakakainis talaga, i am such a cry baby.

hay.  i really miss them.  now it's just allan and me in this big house.  i'll miss seeing mom cook, i'll miss all my pop's corny jokes.  i just want them to stay here.

buti na lang talaga allan is here.



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Thursday, November 01, 2007
and now, on to our yearly blog updates [buwahaha]

it's time to break my silence [aaah, sounds so serious, ha!]


anyways, it's almost a month since i got back from melbourne.  so many things happened and i met so many people.


melbourne was not what i expected it to be, but it was really nice.  maybe the fact that allan was not with me made the trip less more fun than it could have been.  but that is not to say that i did not enjoy the trip. i did and the experience is something that i will always treasure.


one thing i did not like at all was the WALKING, and boy did we do a lot of walking.  it was unbelievable!  i have never walked that much in my entire life.


there was one time when the fire alarm went off.  everybody was dowstairs [this happened at about 4am], well yeah, everybody except, and my roomie.  they said the alarm went on for 30 minutes but my roomie and i stayed fast asleep.  allan was furious when i told him the story.  good thing the alarm was a false one, or allan would have been a widower by now.


a lot of work in the school, but well what's new? 

i got myself a new look.  the all-new-teacher kate is now sporting some hot bangs!!! ha ha.  i've always wanted to have bangs but was always afraid that it would not suit me.  i went with it anyways and i must say, i am sooo loving it.



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Tuesday, August 14, 2007
flying in a month

* tries to hide excitement, but fails, miserably*

okay, so it is final.  my boss just handed me a copy of the schedule we'll have in melbourne. 

there are bot good and not so good bits.

aside from the obvious that i will be spending time in australia and have a bit of free time to wander as well, we also get to go to different places in tours and have social gatherings in the afternoon.  classes are only in the mornings.

now for the not so good bit.

we leave on the 22nd and allan's bday is on the 23rd.  i just knew this would happen and i really did not want to miss his birthday.  i won't be able to greet him too because i'd be flying by then.


allan is sick today so he hasn't heard the news. 

:) / :(

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Friday, July 27, 2007

sino sa inyo ang nasa melbourne????


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Sunday, July 22, 2007
he he

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Sunday, July 22, 2007
lucky me

okay.  it's been quite a while since i last updated my entries.  so far, so good.  we are still very actively playing badminton after work.  what used to be an hour of playing badminton is now 2 nad a half hours or more.  yup, we've put it up a notch.  this is really a great thing because it means i ma building my stamina.  i would usually be dead beat after 20 minutes of playing but i can now pace my breathing and can endure hours of playing.

two weeks ago, allan and i were always fighting over the most trivial things.  i guess it was around that time of the month when i had pms.  the simpliest or silliest things would cause us to say mean things and shout at each other.  it came to a point where i decided to not talk at all, i was getting tired of all the bickering.

allan is someone who will get really angry one minute, then cool things off and try to patch things up the next.  but when i try to point out why he is wrong [ and fyi, he is always wrong and i am always right he he he] we both go back to square one i.e shouting and cursing all over again.

anyways, two sundays ago, i was already feeling really sad about the whole fighting thing.  after work, he said he wanted to take me to makro to buy the paper cupcake holders i've been meaning to buy since april.  i was silent the whole time.  we were quiet most of the trip, but right before we reached the u-turn that would take us to makro, he swerved left and went to the church.  it was really touching.  we have not gone to church since january [ we simply don't have the time as my last class finishes at 6pm and mass ends at 6:15pm]

we both got off the car and he reached for my hand.  we were both very silent. 

i said my prayers.  i asked God to please grant whatever my husband asks for.  whatever those may be, i hope he gets what he's prayed for.

he stood up before i did and waited for me outside.  i followed, still feeling a bit sad.

then he said:

"Smile na, bati na tyo ha."

I smiled.

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my hubby and i
the thing with me is that i know i am almost always right, and that is something most people find so dificult to deal with. do i blame them? hell, no. i mean, i'd be pissed to the bones if i had to confront someone like me.
but then again i know that i can be the sweetest thing
[especially if there are some hidden agendas...]
am quite honest too
brutal truth.
hurts, but works for me.


teacher kai with a former student, Pip


si KAI ay isang titser dito...
dito o,
sa thailand.
anong tinuturo nya???
e di EBISI...
hindi mo maintindihan, labo mo naman..
ABC yan no!
mahilg si KAI magsulat.
sa papel, sa blog, sa windows, sa tissue, sa kahit anong pwedeng sulatan at drowingan na din. kaya kung may malinis kang papel at meron ding lapis o bolpen, wag mong ihahabilin kay KAI kase fershure...pagbalik mo puno na yun ng kung ano anong drawing at tula at minsan sulat at computations pa.


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